It’s 12:05am, I should be asleep but I also felt the need to write this down.
There is a song going around about how horrible 2020 has been and why it’s the worst year ever. And don’t get me wrong. This year has sucked in a lot of ways. Long stretches of time in isolation, an actual global pandemic hundreds of thousands if not millions of people dead, and a lot of hate over trivial things that do not matter in the long run. It’s been a year of being scared of losing my Dad three separate times. A year of moving in with in many ways a stranger and suddenly being stuck together with no where to go. A year of not seeing people in person for over a month which is very hard for someone as extraverted as I am.
But I hope that one day when I’m asked about 2020 I can talk about the good.
How families became closer even through stupid things like a video app thought caused families to do stupid things together. How families learned how to hang out together again because eventually watching tv does get boring.
I want to tell them how I got closer with friends, in ways I couldn’t imagine because we would sit on FaceTime/zoom together. And we run out of surface level things to talk about so we got down to the real things and took the time/chance to be vulnerable with each other a truly listen to each other.
I want to tell about how I got to move in with my best friend. How she took a chance on a house and letting me move in. And how we got chickens, how we learned how to fix things in a house that we never would have never learned except we moved into a house that was 85 years old, and above all I want to be able to tell them about how amazing it was to get to see my best friend everyday. To not have to worry about driving home or if we are over staying our welcome at the other place when it comes to our family/roommates that we lived with.
I want to be able to see the good. It’s not something I’m always doing and I don’t do it to well very often. but I’m trying to grow. And I think that’s what 2020 has been. A year of unbelievable and undeniable growth.